Recent Pinterest Likes // Cozy Transitional


Every now and then I like to comb through what I've "liked" on Pinterest recently. It gives me a little insight into the types of things I've been feeling for the past few weeks or months, whether that be a particular color, theme, or motto. 

Here are my favorites likes from the past month, which to me all radiate a certain sense of coziness or a transitional theme. It's just now starting to kind of feel like fall, so here in the south we're still weathering that pesky transitional phase. So while I'm dreaming of warm homemade pies, I'm still satiating my sweet tooth with ice-cream. Also, I've been scouring for new fall make-up staples and hair-do's because I'm definitely thinking of mixing it up.

I've also been really hitting an artistic stride. Between school projects and immersing myself in reading/writing/creating, I feel more inspired than ever. 

.002 - Ice-cream
.004 - Pie


What have you been loving lately? P.S. - Follow me on Pinterest here!

Currently

(yay, I have two eyes again!)

Feeling: Hopeful, inspired, and tired.

Watching: Currently I'm re-watching How I Met Your Mother, since Netflix pulled Dawson's Creek. I've recently gotten into Outlander and am desperately awaiting the return of Vampire Diaries and American Horror Story, which will be here soon!

Eating: I've been craving lots of rice, bread, and sweet warm things lately. I suppose it's the cooler weather that's got me jonesing for comfort food, but I don't mind (for the moment) because minute rice and boxes of spaghetti are super friendly to my college budget.

Listening to: Really loving the band Bleachers, the Inside Llewyn Davis Soundtrack, the 90's Country Pandora station and the song Don't by Ed Sheeran. All of the aforementioned have been on repeat for the past week.

Working on: getting up earlier and having slower, more peaceful morning, remembering to do my Spanish online homework every other day, a new project for my advanced design class, reading more before bed instead of being on my phone, embracing "love" (the kind not necessarily directed at me), saving $, and giving my small apartment space some fall appropriate modifications on the cheap.

Excited about: submitting my application for that Art History scholarship, gym dates with Jenny 2-3x a week, getting a library card, reading lots and lots, coming home to a house that smells like pumpkins, cool mornings, having two eyes again, the Christmas section at Hobby Lobby, seeing Jack this past weekend, saying "hi" to neighbors, feeling put together again, and the impending weekend ahead.

Online Loving: This Blog, This Blog Post, This Recipe This Free Printable.

xoxo

What have you been up to?

That Time Life Gave Me A Really Weird Lemon to Deal With



I know what your first reaction is going to be (maybe even why you clicked on this post)..."What the hells bells happened to you?! Did you get punched? Did you get into an accident? Did you trip?" 

Let assure you all that I was neither punched in face nor in any sort of accident. However, I don't blame those of you who thought it was probably accidentally self inflicted. We are talking about the girl who did trip in front of Target last week and scratch up her knee like a four year old.

Here's the scoop on why I'm currently sporting the Quasimodo look:

I'm not sure and neither are my doctors really.

It started Tuesday afternoon. I woke up Tuesday morning looking as normal as can be (with two matching, non-swollen eyes). I went about my routine as normal. I sat through an art history lecture and went to lunch. I had broccli cheese soup and called my Dad. Everything was normal as can be. I went in early to my advanced design class to finish printing out a project due that day and noticed my eye starting aching a little. It was tender and barely pink.

Great, I thought. I'm probably getting pink eye...or a stye...or something highly inconvienent. I brushed it off, thinking I'd deal with it later. However, by the end of that 3 hour long class my eye was without a doubt swollen. It was puffy, but I could still open my eye fully. It was just a little redness and swelling, but I called my Aunt (who works for an ophthalmologist) to see if she could readily identify what was happening. It wasn't even really my eye-ball, which wasn't red or hurting at all (in fact, I was able to see 20/20 out of the swollen eye when I went to the doctor the next day), but rather the area directly below my eye. It was so strange.

I spent the rest of the night going about my normal business (gym + a study session) and alternating hot compresses on my eye (which felt nice, but didn't seem to be helping). I did that until I fell asleep.

When I woke up this morning, I expected the swelling to be down, but it was quite the opposite. I could barely open my eye at all. I panicked and looked into the mirror. My eye lid had grown swollen overnight and now I looked worse than ever. I immediately made an appointment at the university health clinic where they inspected, poked, prodded, asked billions of questions, and stuck me four times in the arm to draw blood.

Was it an infection or an allergic reaction? The results were inconclusive.

However, I was given a cocktail of shots and antibiotics with the hopes that something would help. That remains to be seen for now.

So, I'm typing this using only one eye. It's strange how many things I can do successfully with one eye shut. My kindergarten self would be so proud of me. Remember when dares were like, "I bet you can't write your name with one hand behind your back and one eye shut!" ? Welp, I'm totally acing this one eyed lifestyle...I think.

I drove myself to the doctor, to get my prescriptions filled, and then to class. Driving with one eye is harder than anticipated, but doable for the mean time. The biggest challenge though has been dealing with all of the stares. There are those who try to be polite and not stare, but it still makes me feel awkward knowing that they're actively trying not to look or offend me. Then, there are those who do a double take and cringe. I'm not sure which is worse. Most have been exceptionally nice about it and I'm thankful for that.

It's difficult because I'm very healthy otherwise. I'm not sick, I'm mentally capable, and my eyeball technically isn't hurt in anyway. I just have this unfortunate temporary physical deformity and I feel like everyone is judging me or feels sorry for me (but this may just be me being hypersensitive). This experience has really opened me eyes (no pun intended) to what others go through who have physical or cosmetic issues beyond their control. It takes such a strong person to bear the weight of being stared at everywhere you go, everyday. I know my 48 hour plight of having a swollen shut eye is not even remotely comparable to what they experience. In fact, I've only experienced the smallest dose of negative attention for my physical appearance and it's been enough to make me self conscious as hell. For example, I have a meeting for my internship...do I go (because there's technically nothing wrong with me to prevent me from participating) or do I stay home (because I don't want to distract any of the other ambassadors with my face)? The struggle is real.

It takes a brave person to go about their life, head held high and genuinely not care about what others are thinking (or not thinking) about them. I think that's true for anyone, no matter what your circumstances. Having my eye swollen shut really helped me talk to strangers in a more positive way today so far. I feel like I can be myself and most importantly be light-hearted and joke about what is going on. Someone even told me earlier that I have "such a positive attitude" despite the kind of week I'm having. This eye thing has just reinforced the idea of approaching things in a positive manner. I mean, this situation is entirely out my control so I guess there's no use in holing up and being upset.

Life goes on and sometimes even when life gives you a really weird, deformed lemon it's still okay to make lemonade.

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P.S. - I know this is a post I didn't have to write. I could have let myself heal behind the scenes, while still posting content and life would've gone on. However, I feel like it's important to share these very real moments with you guys here. There are some things that happen to me that are better left unwritten about in the public sphere, but I didn't think this was one of them. Stuff happens - crazy stuff - and sometimes little lessons come at you in weird ways. This week, little life lessons came to me in the form of an unexpected swollen shut eye. Plus, sharing this image of my face felt empowering in a weird way. It's kind of like me saying, hey my face might be swollen and I may look half unrecognizable BUT I'm still me. That's awesome. Hope I didn't offend anyone too terribly.



Instagram Life (Late August-Early September)


Here's a little peak into my instagram life, which is sometimes a little more reflective of my day-to-day life than the bits and pieces you get here on the blog. Plus, sometimes I don't share a lot of these pictures here. Well, at least not like I used to. So, here are some snaps from late August to early September.

  1. I made my first homemade, entirely from scratch (crust included), apple pie. I used this recipe and it ended up being a hit. The butter crumble topping with delicious and I even ended up using it on my first made-from-scratch cobbler. I'm definitely going to have to  make another especially since cooler weather is coming in earlier than expected!
  2. Jack had his first day of kindergarten. He looks so big and so handsome! I Facetimed with him the morning of and may have cried harder than either of my parents, but we won't tell anyone.
  3. My last sorority pref night! After bawling my way through seven hours of parties in heels, I managed to get this picture with my friend and sister, Cassie. I was feeling so connected to my sisterhood.
  4. Bid Day 2014 aka my last Bid Day. Our theme was NFL and there was nothing but happy sorority girls for miles. I will miss this kind of energy!
  5. Labor day weekend was spent at the lake with some of my best friends, including my best guy friend who drove five hours to come spend time with us at the lake. It was so nice being able to catch up after a summer apart. We finally have a nice picture of us! #threeamigos
  6. Jack started practicing football for this first time. Isn't he the cutest in his uniform? His first game was this past weekend. I rooted him on from afar!
  7. It was Jenny's birthday the day after Labor Day. I had to do her and our friendship justice with an embarrassingly full collage of pictures of us from high school until now. 
  8. My friend Travis got a new gun and took me to the gun range so I could give it a go. I had never been to a gun range as participant before, so the experience was pretty cool. I've always grown up around guns and am pretty comfortable with them. After some instruction and a little practice, I got into it. It's never too early to prepare for the apocalypse right?
  9. First game day of the season for my Razorbacks was two weekends ago! Just because it was an away game doesn't mean, I didn't still put on for my team. 
What have you been up to lately? P.S. - keep up with me on instagram by clicking here or following @ashspring! 

xoxo